Hmm......... I think about it and I'm quite amazed by some things. Especially that which God does.

Personal time of worship got tough. But this few days, I feel led to sing some songs and I was just touched by the lyrics. It doesn't happen just sometimes. Many times, God has spoken to me through songs and I just know it wasn't me.

My one year bible is now at the book of Ezra! :D One of my fav books since we did the prayer n fast booklet. :D I always feel excited when I read it again and again. :D

You know, recently I just feel like we are always doing . doing . doing . And I really ask myself. What on earth am I really doing all these for. I was brought back to a basic truth. All for Jesus. This life has never meant to be about me, but about Jesus. When the day comes, I hope people will not commend me because of myself, but because of how He has always been with me.

And there are times when God just wants me to wait.

But now's the time for me to sleep.

I shall think of happy things. (:

Yesterday was good. Good sign up rates for this talk we're in charge of, great time of prayer which I didn't expect, and I signed up for skype so that I can see cheryl chiam online. (: Had a once-in-a-month family dinner which my family is trying to implement. but we learnt yesterday that Sunday isn't the ideal day. too many ppl queuing etc. Found a dress that I particularly like because the cutting is super nice! (: but it's black. Don't know if I should wear that for weddings.. Conservative thought. Hehehe.

Sat was good too. Cynthia wasn't around so I was the only leader there. Was a little unsure about myself.. But I just asked God for courage to lead. (: Some of these seemingly small things we ask for and foolishly wonder if it matters to Him as well. But we know we desperately need Him.. and He does answer prayers because. the Lord is my helper. that's where my help comes from. Catch up with lingjia was good- our dramatic little nonsense when we discuss about some things. (: Few friends whom I feel comfortable with.

I decorated my workplace because staff commented it was so 'work'. Sorry perfectionists tend to take longer time cause we want things to look perfect. And to look perfect needs some preparation. Haha. Okay lah, so to surprise them I just took pictures and stuff toy I didn't know I had from home. That includes sammie's 18th bday present for me-- a handmade picture frame which I adore because it's so sincere and sweet. (: I still remember my birthday fell on CU camp, and the cake they bought. (: Miss SFC friends. ):

Two weeks since work at church office. So far, so good. (: Only that I need to decorate my work station asap so that it will be a more colorful place to work in. I should buy glossy paper to try out on my photo printer. (:

Everyone seems to be happy for me that I'm working in church office. I'm glad that I'm taking this one year to cultivate some discipline (e.g. read up more, intercede), think, rest and gain some exposure on youth work. So actually, I'm not wasting my time.

In fact, the most fulfillng part of work these two weeks was meeting youths and interacting with them. It's a love-hate relationship- out of comfort zone and yet fulfilling. (: And it's not so hard to relate with them since secondary school years are still fresh in my mind. I still remember what Auntie Ivy told me when I shared with her about my decision to work in youth church. "It's rare for a youth to want to work with other youths, but it's going to be impactful." (something like that (; )

Ya, I do miss studying. But I guess.. circumstances change, God doesn't. (:

Jem's wedding coming soon! (: Really looking forward to it and to meeting up with great friends!