I was just reading on 1Sam14 this morning. There were many well-known characters: Jonathan the really great friend, Saul the king, Samuel the prophet. But what really struck me was when the armour-bearer who was with Jonathan said to him, "Do all that you have in mind. Go ahead; I am with you heart and soul." The team with two-man strength defeated the 20-odd enemy team. Will I be able to say that too? That, "God, I am with you heart and soul." Wow.

Headed to see Life Con FD2 last sunday. It felt weird going there as a spectator. Really. I thought I could see past shadows of our batch, here and there, preparing for EW/LC. It was so fun. (: Those days.. Kinda wish that it was back. It was like one of the highlights in my life. I know there is more in store in the future. But EW/LC journey has truly been a blessing in my life. I'm sure of that. Anw, I believe this year's gonna be a blast! (: It was nice to see some of the people but less catching up compared to during Prep camp. Got to know some people like Abigail the harmonising machine. Haha. (:

Meanwhile the experience at PC is really good. Not easy, challenging, but good. There are times when I want to give up on a few... but I always remember when Madelene told them that she will not give up on them. Her words gave me an energy boost. I always remind myself to let the kids know that though I scold them, I still love them. Tmr's my last day with the P3s... ): Gonna get a treat for them. (: And pray that the new teacher will be able to help them! I really want to see these kids grow up to be great and useful people.

Hello! First thing: I'm really duper duper sad that I couldn't make it for gathering with clique. Miss them real bad. Esp hz and sam. Hadn't seen them for a serious long while. ):

Oh on a lighter note. I'm going to perform for Easter Drama at church! Hahah it's the most unexpected role I wld think of for myself. But they thought I fitted well for the role. I don't know whether to be happy or sad. Haha. But all in all, glory goes to God! Come support me leh. Hahah! (:

I think I really love meetups esp if food is involved. The other day met up with Rach, Kel, Aloy and Samu for BCM. Thank you Kelvin for the ride! :D Then book of Eli with Rach and Victor. A bit disappointed. But not the show's fault but rather I kinda knew the plot from a friend already. ): And I really agree that the show seemed quite short. I believe it's because they kept filming the guy walking and walking. Hahah. And vic was so slow to get that the guy was blind. Like after the show? Haha! Had popeyes with Joyce and Chiam just now. Chiam was sharing about her Shangri-la buffet. ): It sounded so nice and tempting k! Okay, next time I get my first paycheck I will go. :D

And yesyes I finally applied for my uni. I think I really want to go FASS. Anw I really don't like the applying process. Needa print this, send that. ): Tsktsk.

Lastly, my dear kids. I didn't address them as that. Xiying likes to go, "How are your kids? Hahahah." Evil laughter. Hahaha (: The p3s are still running around like it's a free country with no government (i.e. me). The usually good ones are getting a little naughty. Think that's the disturbing part. They learn easily from friends' behaviour. I feel bad for scolding the children. But well it's for the discipline. Oh they're getting a new male teacher. (Apparently there's only 5 girls and the rest are boys.) So I'd be going off to p1s to assist Teacher Christine. I thought I cld run away from marking, but nope. ): Jiayou! =D God grant me patience and love!

My foot's aching. And I really don't know why. But I guess it's good reason to get a new comfy pair of shoes. :D (Oh man like the Adidas casual which Jassy and I were eyeing on. But we figured the padding won't last for long. Smart consumers. (: )

I finished reading splendid suns. (: But everytime after reading this kinda lit, my mind will really fly away, dreamy and tired from the reading marathon. Splendid suns is on Afghanistan and it really helps you to learn a little about their culture there. For example, some females are made by their husbands to wear the burqa, which I think most Singaporean girls will really find it hard to survive wearing. I checked on the net, it's really like literally wrapping yourself from head to toe. Interesting.

Am quite worn out from the week. Thank God for always replenishing strength! (:

I forgot to blog about A levels. I think I was more concerned about both results and how I would react. I got a CCC/A. So I suppose I feel like I'm hanging in the mid-air. Not very good, not very bad. I was thankful for Econs and Geog because I really thought I would do quite badly for it. History was sad-- I put in much effort into it. As for Math, I think I can accept the result since I had been more concerned about my Humanities. Most importantly, I thank God for my results. It's an act of my will to say, "God I trust You. For whatever the results, I know Your plans for me is good." However, I was still upset, almost ashamed to share my results. I spent one noon pouring my heart out to Him--how much I want to thank Him and yet still have this funny feeling. He helped me to see that my worth is really not found in my results. Because I had been convinced that my results= me. But not so to God. For that, I thank Him too. (: Such lessons/convictions can't be bought. We really need Him to help us out of all the negative thoughts we have of ourselves and of our circumstances.

Khaled Hosseini is one of the awesome-nest writer I know. I remember when I read his 'The Kite Runner', I teared at the part when the protagonist lost his dad or something; he had done something really bad and didn't get to apologise. I'm reading 'A Thousand Splendid Suns' now. I know that sounds pretty late because the library's quite funny. They stocked up a row of kite runner books and only has one splendid sun which people keep hogging onto until I felt fed up to even go check. Heh. (: And for splendid suns, I teared when Miriam said, "I used to worship you" to her dad. )::: It's funny cause' I don't really know if I've experienced that before. But the author's writing is just so well built up that you can feel how the protagonist felt. Noyce. [what Rach would say. btw, we haven rent our kite runner dvd yet.]

Working at PC is a challenge. I guess every job has its joys and woes. (: I'm taking the P3/P4 class and they are really super hyper. And there are times when I really wanna give them a break too because some of them really deserve it. They study so hard. And there is a minority few whom I talk to until my throat's dry. "Go back to your seat!", "Stop running around!", "I give you 5 sec, if you don't keep that I'm going to confiscate it." etc. At the rate that I'm raising my voice, I wonder if I will be able to hit higher notes by then. Oh well, but they're really an adorable bunch. Especially when they say/sing grace. I'm in a dilemma. Haha.
Oh today one of the boy was so cute! "Teacher, why your hair so long?" which is a super how-do-i-reply-you kinda qn. (: And there's a pair of identical twins in my class! I ask one of them, "Is that your brother?" and he said, "Ya, how do you know?" Hahah! (:

Wooh. Speaking of kites. We had zonal bonding and went to the buangkok field to fly kites. Woohoo! It's like my first experience. And I think it's really fun! :D

Anyway, think I know what I wanna study for uni. (: God, help me!

I was munching my Ritz biscuits when I thought maybe I should open up a popcorn stand or snacks bar outside school hall on Friday. Help the people divert their attention to the food. It'd be good money making opportunity too. Haha. Just kidding. (: I guess for me, I want to really remember God's sovereignty and grace in whatever the situation. (:

Am working at Praise Connection now. It's a student care if some didn't catch my prev post. The sup is kinda like training me and YM to teach or something. I really look up to the P1 teacher man. She really get the kids to be disciplined and have a sense of ownership in what they do. Cool teacher.

Did I mention how thrilling it is to have 'off' days?

Hello hello. Ya know, I feel like I'm talking to the air here. But I just like to blog and entertain myself a little. Haha. (:

Kinda just returned from prep camp. Me and lois decided in advance to stay over for the 2nd night. For me, because I felt bad that I can't go for the entire camp. Heh. I think I really enjoyed being there to just help out wherever I can. We did the ew stuff till around 4am. Haha. We didn't get the 'chief slaves' title for nothing. But I really gotta commend the juniors for their 'when there's a will, there's a way' spirit. Even our batch also not hiong. And they even had chocolate fondue for supper! Zai or what. (: Anyway, joined them for sun worship before I flew back to own church. I realised that I really like those songs that quote scripture. While songs which are more expressive are good too.

Hm what defines 'a better choice/decision'? Sometimes I think our definition of 'better' is quite thwarted. Like high-paying jobs is better. Not that they are not true, they may be sometimes. I guess my definition of 'better' is when the presence of God goes with me. When I am walking in His ways.