Philippians 4:12-13

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Did this for scripture reading last week. And it made me ponder. Because many times we like to quote v13 and.. v12 helps us to understand too. Indeed, when we have been through thick and thin with God, we are assured that He will provide for our needs. Which is why we can be contented wherever we are, and trust Him that we can do what He has for us.
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Thank You God. You have given me enough to do the things that You want me to do.

EW/LC meeting today. Thank God that I don't have to wake up early tomorrow.. Got service learning (something like CIP). We're going to Metta school to teach Primary Math.

Speaking of which, I failed my math. My parents were okay with it.. and I told them that it was because I didn't study much, hoping that they won't be that worried.
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EW/LC is like ending soon.. My parents have grown to become more supportive of what I am doing, especially my mum. I don't know why but I'm really touched. Before that, she was quite discouraging. But now when we talk about what has been happening in my school life and how God has touched me, she would affirm me. I really love the smile on her face as she hear me share. Anyway, the meeting today left me amazed.. During the time of prayer and worship, I wondered, "If just like this can leave me so overwhelmed with joy, how would heaven be like?" Even as EW/LC ends, my walk with God does not. There's still a long way to go, but I know I can trust Him to bring me through.

Tomorrow is last paper!

I would probably expect some fireworks once I step out of the hall or something.
Tests never seemed so scary until now. It feels like an exam.
I really have a lot of things in mind.. things that can be done in my free time.
To the beach, to cycle, to eat, to anything that doesn't require me to use my brain very much.
But I guess not until after EW/LC. (Pls don't tell me after A levels.)
It's supposed to be some crucial time. But. One thing I am thinking of is to lean hard on God.

Looyee, go and study your Macro.

what on earth am i doing?

(Okay, I just realised that my post's title is quite ironic.)

I spent my day reading some really good books.

The time is 5.25pm and I have only finished AFC notes.

Oh man.. Honestly, I am not very bothered by BT because I don't feel hopeful about it.
But I know that I should work at it with all my heart.. as a student.

May the time multiply. Nationalism here I come.

Well..... It's hard to take on a "all about You and none of me" attitude. I have to be brutally honest about this. Been struggling real hard about some issues. They may seem insignificant.. sometimes small and subtle. But I just think about it all day long recently.

It never occurred to me that sometimes.. you just need to wait.
Wait for God's power to come and transform.
Wait in submission. Wait with trust...

You know what. I'm so glad that I have a God who loves.

In this long journey, I have a company.

The weekend has been crazy for some of us. But I guess it has really been good and fulfilling. (=

Block test
I think I screwed up my math and history. I went home feeling really depressed for my math, even though I think I did worse for history. My mum was really encouraging when she saw my super emo face when I reached home.
There are two sides to the coin:
- I really didn't study much nor hard. Time management was a problem.
- We have never taken a full hist paper 1 before! It's still tough to process things and write that fast.
I think I performed my best for geog. But it's a H1.. Well, now I can only do my best for the rest of the papers. (=

Prep camp
Super tiring. I guess we were warned about it beforehand.. Haha. But really, I think that this year's experience is different for me. I can't quite remember what we did last year except that Jeremy started calling me 'Elizabeth'. But last year was physically draining too, with the flagging and how Evelyn wanted straight arms etc. Haha. This year is tiring in a sense that I feel the challenges. For example, I am not really an arty person and there I was doing the artefacts. And I find it difficult to work with people because I like things my way. And actually, with more challenges, I find more breakthroughs! We have finished with most of the artefacts and are left with the touchups. (Hopefully, we won't get busy this hol..) And I decided to let my teammates deal with the cross, cause' they're good at it.
I guess there are always challenges for us to break out of our old stubborn habits and patterns-- things that we're comfortable with but hinders our character development actually. The thing is, we have a choice. I am still struggling with certain issues in my life. One thing I am truly grateful for is the assurance that God will walk with me and strengthen my feeble legs. And I am glad that I'm at least conscious of it and dealing with it. Because I don't want to find myself drowning without knowing that every small choice I make can lead to great consequences.

My Greatest Love is You

Every new day, Your glory unfolds
Filling my eyes with Your treasures untold
The beauty of holiness brings worship anew
My greatest love is You

Call me deeper into Your grace
The river that flows from the holy place
Wash over me, cleansing me through
My greatest love is You
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Just a song that just popped into my head. I am reminded of how I should anticipate every day-- to see Jesus glorified, His mercy magnified.
As some would have known how I struggled to serve God in the position where He wanted me to be in, they would love to know how God blessed me in my service. We had to rush proposals for easter week the other day, and God provided what I need. Especially the energy for Monday, since I was rushing the proposal almost the whole weekend and GP presentation. Struggled to go to school that day. Cause I was reasoning with myself, "Even if you go, you'd still sleep. What's the purpose of going then?" So I asked God that I will not fall asleep during lessons, and I did not.
It's beautiful, you know.. How Jesus loves us so much. Even though we grumble about things because we can't see the full picture of things. I'm amazed.