I dont like this feeling at all. Feeling that Im not at fault (mainly) but knowing that Im partly at fault. And I feel that I dont deserve this. I try to be some saint and act all responsible, claiming fault for everything. God, can I just hand this all to You. I know it's hard to not think about it, since it's bothering me so much. But at least I feel reassured that You know everything within me and that.. You're always there for me. Thank You.

I feel compelled to go to sleep early because I cant stand the sight of everything now.

Praise Him- because He's my refuge.