pass the gates of praise

Few things that really made my week so far..

1) Sunday- Really late at night, parents and I went to the 24/7 fairprice that was just opened. On the way we walked by the new neighbourhood and they have the same playground set as sculpture park. They have this swing-like thing that parents and I tried out. Very funny, especially when dad was standing and trying to make that spin-around thing move. I really love my parents, hope we will continue to cherish the everyday that we see each other. (:

2) Tuesday- Ruimin, Letitia and I went to interview the youthbank, or rather, heartware network. I think we were really daring. And it was really a very fun experience. I love talking to people. (: At first I was kinda scared that because this is project work, the person might reject our interview. But she's like really really friendly. I mean it. I hope A&G will be just the same. Anyway, we cleared up a major misconception. I'm so glad. And it was a fruitful interview. Thankyou letty for your wonderful speed in writing. She basically wrote down everything we said. I was really amazed. May our project work go smoothly. (:

3) Today- I think I'm enjoying my stay in SA. (: Especially with some crazy friends of mine. Especially terrance cause' he's always grabbing my bag and wearing it like a bra. Then he'd just pull down the bag strap halfway. With that really disgusting expression on his face. Haha. He said I was his eye candy and started looking at me seductively. I think I will graduate from SA laughing. Haha.

Tomorrow's SFC camp and I'm quite excited. Especially after what Benedict, our group leader, typed in his email to us. I felt that even though there are tough challenges like trusting God no matter what the circumstances are.. He will teach me as I do His will. Wouldn't You give me a heart that is wholly after You.
I've not even started studying for CT and amazingly I'm quite relaxed. I don't know if it's because I'm not far-sighted as usual, thinking that I can finish studying on time, or it's the peace that I had throughout prelims. Hope it's the latter. (;

I don't know if I mentioned, but I really can't wait for youth encounter. (:

But it doesn't really matter right. Yesterday, during altar call, I understood that no one else can really help me and because this is because it's between me and God. I think of the things that I really want to let go of.. but my head went bigger, in my attempt to solve my problem. I think I've been relying on myself too much, except for times when I go for morning worship, somehow I can just really lean on God during that time. Such a bliss. But when my heartstring is being tugged to do something I love for a wrong motive.. that's when my heart breaks. Because I never want to do things for the wrong motive anymore? I think so. I really hate it, cause' it feels hypocritical, it feels fake. Maybe it's when I can finally let go of that selfish desire, then will God give me the green light(the peace of mind) as I go for it. I don't know. But I do know that God's plans will not harm me.
As I go through June holidays, Lord, continue molding my character. Help me to spend time wisely too. And not just live day by day meaninglessly.

Today (yesterday?) is really great. Cause' lewis visited my church since he couldn't make it for his. Had not seen him for sooooo long. And speaker Glenn Lim came to our church. He showed us his childhood photos, and stuff. It's amazing to see how God can really change us. (:

I'm a little anxious about my PW group now. Seriously, I feel like I have to tell them what to do and stuff. Then when something goes wrong, I feel like I'm liable to correct that something. Is it just me, or the group lacking some sort of initiative to even meet up? I don't know, I just hope we can put in more commitment than to just look so sian everytime we decide to meet up. Okay, looyee, just. jiayou.

I love Picasa! (: It helps you make collages so you don't have to post 63 photos and make yourself go crazy waiting. (Actually there are 72++. But they are basically what xiaoxian took of me so I don't want to post lest people start saying I zi lian. (: ) And anyway, yes, at the click of a button! It's so unlike photoshop which makes you do all the layers and stuff and you would really rather post until the sun rises up the next day.
Anyway, I don't know why so many photos. So.. don't ask me either. If you feel sick all of a sudden looking at the photos, maybe you can try the seasick pills, they might help a little. (:















The last two photos were probably the only normal photos.

Today was great. I'm so glad I didn't skip CCA. (:

Tomorrow is hockey finals. FINALLY, my class is going. Cause basically all J1s allowed to go. And an incentive comes along with it, no chinese lesson! *grins secretly
It's not that I hate chinese or what, but the workload is really double of other subjects. Can't blame teacher, we're taking chinese this year. Just wait till next year, I'm so going to bid farewell to it and PW! =DDDDDDD
Half a year has passed so fast. What about two years. Maybe by then, I'm still thinking of 4E2 and just imagine the guys are going to go botak really soon. =D Then we can use their heads as our mirrors! (: And I'd miss people in A03. Except for people who call me lao zha bor. (; Just kidding.

Labour Day. I am sorry for the late posting of photos (to the girls).























When we took these three photos, some aunties were laughing.



Based on a geography assignment and test, I have failed my geog CA. But well, to be optimistic, I have a high U. I was just one mark away from a 'S'uperman! Well, I guess the marking criteria is strict. Like one four mark question is no longer 2 factors with elaboration. But well, I'd definitely do better for Common Test. I'm just quite glad that I'm not yet losing my mind as I continue to conquer my homework file. Somehow, it just keeps trying to 'exfoliate'. Haha.
Anyway, I feel really bad for forgetting birthdays. It's like a few days before I will remind myself but on that day I just forget. But well, to these people which include Prissy, XX and Sam face, I still think of you guys. (;

Uh, I really can't wait for holidays. (:::::: Then I can like sleep in everyday..... The thought of it. Yes. What a motivation. (:
Tomorrow's the ASEAN talk. Apparently, I think I'm gonna sleep. It's like from 8-4pm? Crazy.
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I feel like I'm climbing stepping stones. And sometimes you just need to continue climbing up the same kind of stones. Mentally, I felt really tired many times. But I think that life in SAJC has really brought to me small little difficulties that seemed insignificant but are actually things that we really hate to go through. Like going for a lesson on your own (I'm the only Geog student), cultivating interest for something you aren't really keen on doing. It's the little surrenders you make, giving up the 'comfort zone'. For reasons you do not know, but believe that God has a plan for you there. I know that He has been comforting me, placing good friends around me in SA. I'm always looking forward to morning worships because I get strengthened in faith and His love.
Thank You Lord for bringing me through.

Just give Him yourself and He will do the rest.

I'm away from school, like again. Well, recently I have been inconsistently having fever, flu and stuff so I kinda found it weird. Doc told me I have throat infection. I really didn't know. Cause' my throat doesn't hurt except in the morning. Good thing I went to doc early. But right now I'm still feeling a little feverish so please pray for speedy recovery. (:

I really can't wait for project work to be over. I think all of us are so going to celebrate after all these proposal drafting are done cause' it's really frustrating to keep adding new stuff here and there. Like a drawing that never seems to be finished. But well, it's all gonna be over in half year's time which I truly believe is going to pass very fast without us realising. (: So.. jiayou!

GDOP (Global Day of Prayer) on Sunday was really great. I went for the chinese one. (: It's really great, to spend time praying together with my parents and other fellow brothers and sisters. And we saw so many different flags being distributed, so which really looked foreign to me. After that, had steamboat to celebrate Mother's Day at The Mushroom Pot. I think the service there is pretty good, and the soup is nice too! (:

I think we're really fortunate to be in Singapore. Despite the fact that all around us is water and water, we are indeed safe from the natural disasters. I think the newspapers are really depressing, they keep showing pictures of the tragedy and plaster 'death tolls' all around on the paper. Let's not give up hope as we pray for these people.

living God

Though my world may fall, I'll never let You go..

This phrase really spoke to me today. When I was feeling so weary, like everything has gone wrong. When I got onto MRT and browsed my phone inbox, the msg that JM sent long ago was still inside and it really caught my attention.
Such a sentence.. when we were on spiritual high, we could have sang it loud and really meant it. But when tough times come, when our vulnerabilities is all we can see, will we remember it?
I thank God that He is there. Everytime when I needed an assurance or a reminder. Indeed, He will never forsake us.

So far.. teachers have been merciful. They gave us grace periods for assignments and presentation. So actually I'm feeling quite relaxed.. (: Like yesterday, I knocked out at 7 plus pm... Haha. I think we've almost cleared all the tests of the semester. So yay. Can't wait for June hols. I need a beach retreat. Anyway, I hope to be able to go for OCIP. It seems so fun, building houses. I know that's not supposed to be the focus. Well, let's see how it goes. (:
Meanwhile, to all who are struggling with studies, don't stress yourself up. Take things one step at a time. (: