I can't explain it. The moment I got out of the library, I kept smiling, smiling, smiling.

Yesterday we had our A-level Chinese Oral. Within me, I was quite nervous.. So while waiting, I kept praying within every time I got nervy. I told myself the same thing I said to myself recently. You lose nothing for trusting, in fact, you should be more glad trusting Him in the first place. (Breaking out of our finite thinking) The topic that came out was similar to what my teacher tested me that very morning.
But sometimes He doesn't work in the way we wanted. Like when I was expecting a certain topic to come out for Geog, it did not but the paper was quite easy. (Easiest among all papers)

I know I had not been working hard enough for my exams. Been idling around, lacking concentration. Sometimes I even lacked the will to continue studying.
But the Lord has been my strength even when I feel like I've failed Him.
Promos, I'm going to work with all my heart.

I'm here to blog..... (:

I can't believe it. I know you can't either. I actually had 7 hours of exam today. It's amazing, probably the longest examination I ever had. Good thing we had a teeny weeny one hour break. Else you don't call us saint, just call us in-saint. (:
I think I did my best for GP.. Chinese wise, I'm only disappointed that I forgot to add in an important part in my zuo wen. Else, it would be the best and most humourous essay I've ever written. I was busy keeping myself still in my seat as I tried to keep my laughter. During Chinese paper 2, I think I was subconsciously doing my paper. I felt like my mind was floating..

June holidays has come to an end. )= But well, I think I spent it well, cause I gave in time to play. Thank God for the wonderful vacation. (:
And the company of 1E1. It's amazing how we can actually still keep in contact and actually have a chalet almost every year. I was amused by whoever's term on the Forever 7 vs Destroyer 6...... Haha!


Presenting the F7 and D6! (:


Destroyer 6


Cutie pie 4 (Haha! no looma, stop it.)

Photos 'koped' from Ah Chi. (:
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sometimes it gets quite tiring as it goes rough. thank you charis for your msg. you're really a buddy. (:

for you alone

That's the latest FabulousHappyMugger cover for June issue. Yay.



Pretty right. Me! (:

i bring an offering of worship to my king

Back from church camp! It was awesome because God was moving. Without Him, any camps would be nothing. That's how I really feel.

I have so much to share, about how I finally understood some things and we've all claimed a gift that God has provided freely for us.
First thing, during almost every worship, I have an insight. One of which I was really touched. I saw a man carrying his young boy during worship. The boy looked tired, but he could lean on his daddy for support. It was like a visual aid for me, showing me how much God loves his children. I thank Him that even when we feel frail, He will still lift us up. We are truly precious to Him. I think as I was looking at them, we were singing this song that went, "You are my shepherd." One of my cell leaders once showed me Isaiah 40:11,
He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
he gently leads those that have young.
Another, I prayed for a woman. I was quite driven to do so.. Cause' I saw her alone and every other people around her had prayer partners so I decided to join her. We were praying for a word to encourage each other and she was touched by my prayer. I don't know why, but I am really amazed by how God can use people of any age. At first I was still wondering if she'd feel like, "What? Get prayed by a little girl?" I'm glad. It's a first step for me to step out in boldness to be used for God's mighty works.
Lastly, this June I've made many friends. In SFC, girls' encounter, and church camp. Thank God for all these people. (: I really enjoyed Joyce and Sop's company. Thank bunkmates. Great and fruitful shopping with you guys =D

Hello hello. (: I love the rain today, it just came straight down, attacking the heart of the road. Only nice if you're indoors. Just hope that Dad and Bro will reach home safely. (:

Plan for now. Study until at least 4am if I can and tml get my 5hour sleep on the bus. =D I know it isn't really good for health, but well, I really have to chiong studying. I'm really way behind time. Sigh. *Thinks about geog and laugh at the notes lunatically.
(And she continues typing despite knowing that she could have studied now.. *Shakes head)

Meanwhile, church camp to KL tml! =D Really hope for a great experience, esp with my bunkers (Joyce and Sop). Wish us smooth journey on our way. (: And productive studying. *Smuggles notes into bag in case someone calls me a nerd. )=

♥ нuісніn™ ; says:
have a good trip tomorrow, and i hope that your bus dont run out of oil half way since there's price hike on the oil recently

What.. (: Today studied with Chin and Prissy at Changi Airport, quite productive for a group study. And I love the environment there, how quiet. (:
Talk about yesterday, it was quite depressing. Haha. Ruimin and I went to Raffles to find EMCC and we took 1hour to find the building. We kept looking around the tall buildings, crossed the most roads I ever had in my life, and it was actually a short building. Yay, sorry JC students can be that myopic and inflexible. But my brother told me I'm different! (maybe he just wants to comfort me) Well, anyway, we feel really bad for making a last min appt. But well, he said he'd help us by reply our email. No need for interview. (: And Ruimin gave me earrings for my birthday and went 'Shit' when I told her I didn't have earholes. Haha.
Anyway, to Ruimin: Thanks for your presents esp the shirt. I will remember you guys when I wear it. (:

I think I'm really blessed. Blessed with a Lord who loves, with family that I can really talk to, friends who care, with teachers who show great concern..

Thank you all who made me possible to be where I am. Your encouragements, well wishes, etc are of great value and I truly appreciate you guys. (:
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I just came back from youth encounter yesterday and I think it was really great. I felt that the sessions gave very relevant points just that at some parts I felt quite sleepy and some things didn't go in. Haha. I experienced for myself how our past hurts actually still bothers us and can affect the way we live now. During clinic session, I was sharing with Wanhui about something that happened in primary school and I cried as I shared. I never thought that the pain was still so real.. Thank you Wanhui for praying with me as I release those past hurts and forgive people and myself. (:
Just a gentle reminder to myself: Stop procrastinating! (okay, not so gentle. but i'm really restless.)

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Thank you juicy for accompanying me to botanic gardens. Man, it was great being with nature once again since 8138657825674 years. We went there acting like tourists man. Didn't know the place changed so much. It changed, didn't it? Need more of such trips. Else I'd just feel like a deprived city dweller.

2 funny things in my inbox today.

The first, an alien signed off in her pw email with this.

love,
the cuter than looyee one, Ruimin (:

Apparently, she's no different in HK. I think she scared everyone off. I bet during her dance auds, she would show the person her big eyes and 'innocent' face again. Haha. Just kidding. Jiayou Ruimin for your auds! =D

The second, 2 fellows sent the same email to me telling me I won some stuff. They just put somethign like, "Your email address with reference number xxx-xx-xxx-xxxx (and I bet they anyhow typed the number)...." I really want to say in their faces, "Wah, really ah?" in my ultra sarcastic voice. Okay, I just checked my junk email. There's like a lot of such scam emails nowadays, so guys, be careful. (:
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I declare that I love GP! I mean the contents, not the tests and everything. GP notes is the only thing that makes me wanna read on. So unlike Math, which makes me do until my face turns green like algae. And my Chinese is still in my locker. Hehe. Geog is forever about the crust and blahblahblah. Actually it's quite fun, just that first few chapters are really dry.... no moisture at all, seriously.
The school actually sent a progress report to our house and let our parents see the horrible grades... )= And my dad passed me the letter late at night so I kinda got a scare. And they threw in the PW schedule as well... The stalker. Just won't give me a break. But well, let's just pray that we get a reply from the organisations soon. To ____, just take it as entertaining some little kids for a while, please?

everything to me

I grew up in sunday school
I memorized the Golden rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But i'll never be the same
Because he changed my life when He became...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that i'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that he is...

(Chorus)

truly personal

I grew to realise that God allowed me to know. There must be a reason. Somehow, I felt reassured by Jeremiah 29:11,

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Don't settle for what you think is good, but wait for God's best for you. (: I guess even as His plans unfold for us, sometimes we will feel so unhappy, so unexcited cause' it's not what we want. But think about it, if the one directing our steps is God who is always in control, who has helped us thus far (1 Sam 7:12), should we not be excited that there will truly be greater things in store for us? (:

I just came back from SFC camp, motivated and refreshed. It was really fun and meaningful. This time, we learnt more about calling. I encountered God very personally during the camp. Pastor prayed for us individually. And God did not just say, "Looyee, I'm going to give you this this that that." Instead, He reassured me, knowing that I was afraid and feeling inadequately equipped. God is a God who truly understands how we feel. He doesn't disregard it. He comforts us.

May this post allow you to know more about who this God is. (: