I miss school. And I never knew I would ever ever miss school since I came to SA.
I'm happy because I'm finally feeling the right way. Well, somewhat.

Bad night yesterday. I didn't feel well so decided not to go school. In the end, I ended up watching snow white vcd with my parents until 2am. (:
Hi-ho, hi-ho! I really like the music, so cheery. (: I feel young again.

Yesterday I watched this show which focused on premature babies. It's a true story btw.
There was this loanshark who decided to quit what he was doing. Then one day, he got chased to the alley by those guys who wanted his life for quitting. When he had no way to go, (there was this door that could only be opened from the inside) he looked up into the sky and said, "Jesus, if you really exist, don't let me die." Just then someone opened the door to throw rubbish and he quickly got inside and the guys lost him. When he came out from the front door, he saw a poster with a verse from the Bible proclaiming Jesus.
I just felt so touched.. because He never fails. Nothing is too difficult for Him.

There was this girl by the name of Charis Ng who asked me for a decent photo of hers. Decent? The probability is likely to be 0.000000000000000001%.
Don't you agree? =D

my hiding place

Overwhelmingly tiring and draggy week.

You never understand what a wonderful thing it is to wake up on a Saturday ultra early morning and plop back to bed remembering it's a Sa-ter-dae. Ahh.. such a blessing to be able to sleep on an ultra comfortable bed.

But my week was good. Because the dear computer that I thought had crashed actually only had a loose chip and I'm now happily typing away. And we did our role play for the PW OP which everyone laughed away and DP1 was sitting in somemore. But okay, ST says we have to make it serious. Man, he was laughing too. You always feel that sense of accomplishment to make ppl laugh, don't you? I hate it when I say jokes and people don't get it. )= And that very day I believed my fear of public speaking has minimised alot and I'm happy. How true it is that you don't have to join debating to learn to speak confidently. (:
The only sad thing is I failed my CT and Dad has to go parent-meet-tutor. I always love to talk, so I guess I will be tagging along. (:

Today's service was really great. Pastor told us to take out something precious in our wallet. I took out a picture of 4E2 and my friends, people whom I dearly miss (maybe a little too much).. and we prayed that He will take priority over things precious to us. It felt somewhat liberating. I've been hanging on to my past. I should be living for today and look forward. During cell discussion, I think we were quite open in sharing about the things we took out and how we've been living. Somehow, it felt like I just tore down a small little mask that I've been wearing.

Well, I think one thing I have to work on is really studies. To stop loving sleep. God help me, especially when emotions overwhelm me.

no better place

Something worth mentioning about the ushering thing I talked about in my previous post. I saw my ex-VP, Mrs Tay! I really got a shock man. I was ushering the cars, then this familiar face pulled down the windscreen and said, "Inside got enough lots?" "Yes, alot." And suddenly I was like.........
"oh man" in my mind. Hahaha.

Combined choir practice btw SFC and Choir. Cool, but a little nostalgic. Haha. It's for the commendation of student council. To NV chorale performing in HK, all the best! (:

Nice talking with a friend of mine. I learnt so much from people around me. I think I'm too blessed and how much I want to bless others with what I've learnt. One thing he said about what we want etc.. I just find it so true. I'd believed what I want is what's best.. I want to do this and that in the future... etc. But God, I trust You for giving me the best, the place I know I can truly belong to. Thank You.

Yesterday, met up with Juvenal and Cherlyn. We talked quite a lot about the past, present and future. Who will get married first.. (then Juv and I start worrying about becoming bachelorette) Trying to remember Leroy's name until our brains are about to explode.. etc. (: Haha. I never realised they missed 4E2 life too.. Sometimes I wondered if I had a problem for thinking of them. Now I know I'm still quite normal. Haha. (:

I dreamt of the 'start' of end times. It didn't seem scary, but it felt scary. There was all the tension and people were leaving. Just a lot of movement. Leaving my family behind. And somehow, we stayed and the first thing that came into my mind was, "I have not read enough of the Bible yet. Where should I start from?" And I panicked. I guess it made me realise some things that I've taken for granted. The bible that lies there.. and everything else around me. We're really fortunate to be able to experience liberty in many areas of our lives, which some people can't even have. I'm asking myself, "Is it time you start treasuring these little privileges in life?"

Just last Thurs, we had ushering for a school event. It was quite fun, even though tiring under the sun as you have to keep signalling the cars and holding the placard which some residents and drivers kept staring, trying to read from it. I was quite afraid that accident might happen because they keep looking at it. Then I will be the mastermind! Indeliberate murder.. I've think too much. Haha. Yeah, I feel less restless after serving the school in just that small little event.

I think I'm really lazy and I keep sleeping like a pig. Seriously. I don't think anyone can help me if I don't help myself first. God, grant me strength and grace.

our very grad high

Hehehehehe.

.Alyssa. says:
hey!!! piggback me next time... i think u canot carry me anymore... gain weight alr

I was pleasantly surprised when Aly suddenly reminded me of the piggybacks I used to give her. Esp after recess and I'd bring her up the four-storey. I must have been crazy.
I guess even though we don't put 'I miss 4E2' on our mouths everyday, inside our heart we still miss and treasure the times we have had together as a class. Thank you class. (: I still love you guys a lot.

Exasperated. But I still thank God that I can praise Him.

On earth, my prayers can still be heard. I wondered, if it was in hell, could it reach heaven. And even if it could, what meaning would there be by then. It'd be too late.
Sometimes we think our situations are 'like hell' but think of it, hell is a scary & horrible place I'd never want to be in.
Am I thinking too far? Better early than too late.

Good thing that my Hist isn't that bad. And at first we thought S= 0 credit. Turned out it was 5. Amazing. I didn't do Math in vain. Hehe. But sometimes I think.... we worry too much. About getting retained and stuff. Yes, true that we need to understand the urgency and put in action. But it's time to disallow worry from burying us.. Things will flow well as long as you put it in God's hands. (:

I've been reading this book by Corrie Ten Boom. One interesting part that I'd like to quote. When she asked her dad about sex when she was very young, her dad responded by telling her to carry his luggage, which was way heavy. And he said, "Some knowledge are too heavy for children. When you are older and stronger you can bear it. For now you must trust me to carry it for you."
How true. I may not understand a lot of things. But one day (in heaven) I will. For now, I will trust God to carry it for me. May it be an encouragement to you.

dont emo! (:

I was blog surfing and people were so discouraged that I was encouraged to put up an encouraging post.. (Even though I'm feeling a little emo now due to influence of mass media.) How's that?

Service yesterday was good. I begin to see that I've been putting Jesus in first place in the things I do but not in my heart. You know, like doing something right but you are just so unwilling. So I've set a resolution to be truthful with Him first and ask Him to help me. I don't know if God was the one who created the nature of my heart or not, but I do know I can always ask Him to change it and He will gladly do it for me. By faith.
Faith builds up by the circumstances we've went through and how we see the blessings that God has put in our lives (even the small, 'insignificant' ones), thus we can trust and hope in Him! (: Just like how you would trust someone close to you.. just that God is different. He never fails. If you see my 26th April 2008 post, you'll know what I mean.

I see that many times we just won't admit we need God's help. By our own knowledge, intelligence, we try to change the world, solve our problems etc. I would end with Dudley's question, just in a different context, how are you doing right now?

he knows my name

This is my 366th post! A 'year' of posting has passed. (:

I just got back my Math, a just-right-there sub-pass. Maybe you'd think I'd be mourning over it but no, I thank God enough because I only revised the concepts. I will try to pluck up the energy to study better. Even though this week is really slack.. Hehe.
This post is partly dedicated to my cell group. Thank you cell for the two years of bond that we have. Indeed, I believe that we have a very strong bond as a cell in Christ. Cell is one thing that makes me hang on, especially when sometimes our spiritual walks get a little shaky, when discouragements set in. I'm really thankful for our two great cell leaders who shares our joys and sorrows together. And a bunch of cell mates who provide support for one another when the other is down. Even when we move up to young adults one day, I believe that BFC still holds very dear to our hearts. Let's strive on growing nearer to Jesus as we continue to grow in His likeness. May He reveal to you Himself in a special way everyday. (:





Sunday's service was really great. The worship really spoke to me. Within my heart, though the torrents get strong, He calms the storm.

And I really miss 4E2 alot. Much is left unfinished.