hello aceh

Hello all. Just a short and quick post.

Im heading off to Aceh for mission trip from tml to 5th Dec. Pls pray for me when you can. (:
Well, it's my first time.. so I'm really excited now.. Haha.

See you guys really soon. (:

Hello (: I had my very very first work experience yesterday- selling ice cream. Haha. I think Im gonna hate ice cream because the customers like to see and hold it until the box is going to melt or smth then hand it back to you for a more 'hard' one. Haha. Quite fun actually. Even though we were rather depressed with someone scolded us. Well, I guess that very one day taught us a lot in different ways. Chui and I were supposed to make a hundred but because we gave discounts, we were left w 90+. And split into two. I guess for a first-day ice-cream seller, it isn't that bad. Afterall, we have door-to-door experience before. (: Except that the dry ice really hurts. Haha. And yes, it definitely motivated me to study harder for better job in future.

Went for mission trip prep. I think today is kinda fun cause' we got to know people in the team much better when we keep talking. I heard that the food there is very nice. So maybe, Juvenal, it's wiser for me to bring the food back instead of fertile soil. =D

Headed out for job hunting yesterday. I think Jassy is gonna get the pepperlunch. It's pretty crazy, you have to work there for 4-5 months. I dont even have a full whole month. So basically, all these while I'm just having fun trying to find something to do. Haha. Maybe I'd even go sell ice-cream. Haha! And gobble it up. =D
Went to meet up with cell girls. I think cafe cartel's service isnt really that good. Firstly, they have a empty pepper bottle. But their cheese is really great even though I dont really know what's in the mixture of weird thing. Yup. It was great talking about Iris' love story. Haha. Like how she met 'Bobby'. (:
I guess, it's pretty funny. How in the past I started "declaring her affection for .." according to Jason who's in another church now. Clarissa and Joyce should know who. Poor joyce, everytime have to hear me say, "I wanna eat prata. Cause' he likes to eat." Haha! This was.. 5 years ago! =D Well, I guess I've grown pretty much. I learnt that whatever may come, I'll hold on to letting God's will be done. (:

You're the best christmas gift ever

Christmas! I cant wait. Service on sat and we practised carolling. =D The festive mood is already burning in our hearts. So after looking at what Joshua posted, I felt that it was good to let people have an idea of what I want for Christmas..... Hahahaha.

1) Go to LIFE bookshop and grab any book with nice cover and really good content. (:
2) Bury me with tops.
3) I want a shawl, those kinda like jacket one! (hint hint huichin)
4) I want the zebra belt. Hahaha!
5) A sunglass with eye degree of 650, which is really impossible. Haha.
6) Tell me Im cute. HAHA! Okay, that sounds rather disgusting.
7) Get me a laptop. Even more impossible.
8) Compose a song and sing the song from my void deck. Okay, Im just just kidding. Please dont scare my neighbours off.
9) Send me all the Christian songs you have. =D
10) Everyone to just be happy. (: I guess that's already a blessing.

I still think 1) and 9) is the most practical.

the joy that overflows out of me

THIMUN is over. I dont know what to say, but I know I definitely miss it. I guess it's a different level of participation for me this year. Yup. I think yesterday was really fun. Timor-Leste was sitting at the back, and it's kinda sad cause when we raised our placard, the Chair just wont call us. Even though Jm was so enthusiastic to raise it. She was probably half way up her chair. Haha. We really love dealing with this issue on Palestine and the atmosphere was really funny and tense. Cause' Palestine was the co-submitter of the reso, but during plenary it was against the reso. We were basically watching a drama going on or smth as the people argued. And I was pretty sad when we voted for the reso. The delegate of Vietnam was probably still willing to buy Jm and I lunch if we voted against, which in our hearts we were against the reso. Haha.

Aceh is just 5 days away and my heart is thumping hard because it's coming so fast. I've missed rehearsal so I'm not really prepared. Currently still preparing my heart to take up roles that I've never tried before, and expecting anything can happen.
I've been tearing these two days. I really know why. God has really helped me so so much. I really can't explain how grateful I am.

He loves me not for what I've done

Hello! (:

These three days have really passed in a flash. Well, I feel happy having things to do for one so that I wont feel bored staring at four walls. But well, it isn't really good to like to be busy huh. I have to really give glory to God for these three days, of which tml is the fourth. Why? Because before I came for THIMUN, and the reason that I came, was I knew I would have to depend on God heavily. Im like very happy lar, cause human's tendency is to be a noble man and take up all things and slog your life through.

Yes Janice, I've finally made POIs! Well, I can't really explain my joy. But after having a talk with Mr Lim which brought me to the verge of tears when I talked to him how God has been comforting me and encouraging me all the way when Im doing my devotion. After the talk, I went back to my GA and I have no idea, I raise that placard finally and I spoke. And actually, it feels really great when the Chair says, "The delegate of Timor-Leste, you've been recognized." You guys would probably think, "Huh? Looyee can't talk one meh?" But seriously, I'm the kind who finds it rather difficult to talk to strangers. So okay, my hand was shaking when I sat down. God told me He will never finish His work in me halfway. I decided to place my trust in Him and the next day when I raised that dumb placard, it felt like the most natural thing ever. The only sad thing is I didnt have the time to make the amendment. But I know He's gonna finish His work on me.
He has talked to me alot. When I'm walking to the canteen pitying myself for being alone, He throws this thought in my mind and tells me I'm not alone.

I have to believe tml will be a better day to have a better day.

Down the road, a beautiful flower caught my eye.
She told me, "Carry on little flower, you can do it!" (Quote from Aly's bottle)


Then later, a shit came in my way.
But we become special friends. (:


There was this monster with really bad breath (haha!)
He likes to watch heroes fly in the sky, and capture the scene with his camera and a glass.
(Is that the most decent shot you can take with me? Justkidding. (:)


There were also several other girls.
Our hobby is to be defamed. But well, we can't be unglam for the day.


There was this poor girl who always get bullied by me.
I was like the big bad wolf, ready to gobble up Little Red Riding Hood. =D


We went to the zoo, and saw this tiger.
She seemed so friendly, even willing to take picture with us.
But then later she roared out loud, we ran away with our legs trembling with fear.


I heard a loud voice crying out, "Im cut and pretty and everything!" (yeah, including ugly. jk!)
I turned around and gave her a sneer.
But later joined in, we were self-praisers. =D


And holding on to the torch of victory.
We're gonna run our race.

Source: Huichin, Juvenal, Dudley

dedication

I don't know about you, but I'm just so glad to be in 4E2.

I never really expected much for the high tea. Actually, the food was so-so except for baked mussels that I was just so tempted to just take the whole tray and go. After all, I had already planned to gobble up the mussels. I guess the thing that really made the whole graduation worth remembering was the teachers' well wishes, friends taking photos, and of course the cheering no matter who was performing. It didn't feel like we're just spectators, but we were involving ourselves in the whole show.
Thank you Priscilla for the wonderful video clip. I really meant it when I said the longer the clip, the better. You've done a great job defaming Juvenal. =D
Thank you Mr Lim for your message too. Especially when we don't even know how you got our primary sch photos! Thank you for having so much faith in our class too. (:
I guess to 4E2, even if we didn't get the best class award, we'd still believe that we're our best class! And all goes to other classes too. I'm sure that everyone is proud of his or her own class. =D Thank you teachers for your votes.
Thank you 1E1 people too, you guys have made my Sec1 life really great. Especially the fact that I was all so cute and innocent back then. And I still am. Haha. Who am I fooling. =D

To Juvenal, Cherlyn and Jasmine: Thank you girls for walking w/ me this 4 years. I'm gonna make duplicates of you guys so that I can go crazy. Yeah, juv, you're right. I think the ppl in JC will flee if they hear me self-praising. (:
To Charis, Jiamin, Bryan, Dudley, YM, Lewis: You guys are good to talk to and seek advice from. Thanks for everything esp when you have to listen to my nonsense and yup, I'm just grateful to have known you guys (esp JM for the FOP trip that brought me back home). Yay, I'm the prodigal daughter. Haha. Continue to FISH HARD. (:
To Huichin: Yay, you've been accompanying me since Sec1. I was really surprised by what you wrote in the letter but don't you ever feel bad about it. (: Thanks because you're the one who is nearest to me to listen to my crappy stuff and laughter. I feel like a loud hailer now. )= Haha.
To Alyssa: Im gonna miss you alot. You're unique in your own way and I will miss piggybacking you. Today was such an accomplishment! I managed to piggyback you in my dress. =D
To every single person I met in NV: Im so glad to know you! =D Even if you don't. Haha!

Well, it's time for me to move on to my next destination. Yes, to where God's placing me in.
No matter where I have been, I know something that is eternal is where I'm truly heading.

We got back our report book today. Hmm.. Im feeling rather okay. Just that we were not a bit nervous. I wonder how it's gonna be like on the actual O's release. I have a feeling that I might cry even before I get. Haha. That's what happened during PSLE. We took our papers in tears. I hope to be separated into a room and let my feelings out in there. Hmm.. Well... faith overcomes anxiety. Im just gonna remember that.
I pulled out of singing for the grad high tea too. Feel a bit bad.. but after yesterday, I just felt so . I dont feel like Im having a holiday. But well, Im just so gonna let God's power rest on me and that I may be strong in Him. Yes.
I do need the discipline.

beautiful field of harvest i've yet seen but believed

My first end-of-O's present is : comp crash.

Haha. It's like kinda irritating. I was all grouchy when my brother told me all my data are gone. My debates, my wonderful photos, my videos (the drama serials starring juvenal chan, jasmine chi and cherlyn with guest stars once in a while), etc. I came out all positive after wondering if God will make an album of heaven, my family, friends to show me when I get up there. You know, heaven guide. Haha. But well, the next day, my brother told me that he revived the data. So Im like, totally grateful. Haha.

Yesterday was fun. Hahaha. We roamed around to find jobs. As in really holding on to classifieds and walking. Funny. Then we also went to the RecruitExpress. We were like totally lost in the midst of tall buildings. And crossing the road was just as hard when it seems like there's endless stream of cars lining up. Well, the interview turned out quite okay. He just asked some questions. But it's gonna take time to find a job for me. Considering my weird schedule. I dont have much hope, but I read a devotion on a job interview on that very day.
It's about this guy who got his job and the directors said, "You didnt have the best resume nor the best qualifications, but there's something about you that we like. We can't put a finger into it." It's like God's favour was really resting on him.

Oh yes, 'Facing the Giants' was really great. The movie was like.. I dont know, it's the first time I can relate to the characters. It's just very different from all the other shows I've watched cause' it's very reality-based. I was really moved to tears. And I will never forget the deathcrawl. They were training for their baseball and this guy was made to do the deathcrawl, whereby another guy will be placed on your back as you crawl in push-up position. Then he aimed for 30 yards but the coach blindfolded him and told him not to limit himself. Everyone was sure that he cannot even reach. But in the end, he got all the way to 100 yards with much perseverance. I guess, we're really limiting ourselves at times. We can do so much better with all our strength. Just that excuses, lethargic, ppl's judgments like to take its place on us.

Okay, Im just so grateful that O's is over. I cant really say I wish that I can do it all over to kill boredom. Haha. When I think about it, it feels quite surreal. Like.. secondary one was really yesterday. And I just did my papers so quickly. It's like do your papers, get your results and head to your next stop. And I kinda know which JC God wants to place me in. An environment where people build me up and not tear me down. Due to my little faith, I still have my reservations. Im asking for Him to make His will for me clearer.

I finally understand the meaning of 'shop until you drop'.

Malaysia trip 06' (: We really look weird holding on to some plant. Haha.

Forgive us for saying lines like "Im just so tired of living" when there are people who are struggling even for a breath.
Im seeking the passion I've long lost. The passion that makes me cross over the gap between living and surviving.
Always remember Isaiah 40:31. Im gonna stop living life like an ostrich that finds it even difficult to fly.

i need extra coating for my armour

Oh man. Im just so excited at the idea of mission trip! I remember a time when I started having this desire to go and help people, spread love to them etc. Im just so glad that God placed this opportunity for me to go for mission exposure. He cleared away obstacles, which includes Joyce's prom which at first clashed with mission date, shifting the date from 27th to 1st. =D Im just so excited lar. The programme sounds so hands-on. All ready for it.

I've just thought of my requirements of my ideal JC. Haha.
- Near (impt, cause i've gotten so used to the geological distance from house to sch. haha!)
- Where there are the sick (not literally lar)
- Where I can improve on public speaking
- Where I can grow in the Lord
- Subject combi that I will like and use in future
- Hopefully, have some of my sec sch friends

Meanwhile, please pray for Joe that he'd be able to get his leave.

There's a time for everything. I guess that includes retreating to a hiding place and getting out of it. Sometimes I just get so.. I dont know what you call, thoughtful? That I just dont wanna mix with the crowd but just sit there and think, see, hear. Perhaps some of you who knows me better would have noticed. But this habit just gets so clingy that it even comes at the wrong time.. Which yes, I think I should control it.

My aunt just bought this book on Your Best Life Now devotional for me, well in a way. It's really great. Im just so happy, seeing a new book on my desk and it's meant for me. When so many times I enter the Life bookshop and stare at the beautiful book covers, knowing very well I cant buy all of them. Haha.

Physics was great, I would say. Next up: SS

Psalm 103:12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

Thanks Joshua for sending the song. It's kinda stuck into my head now. Haha!

Chinese was amazingly good. 5 more papers= 6h15min. (:
And after that, it'd be time to dream. Hahahahaha.