Some people brought to him a paralyzed man on a mat. Seeing their faith, Jesus said to the paralyzed man, "Be encouraged, my child! Your sins are forgiven." (Matthew 9:2, NLT)
In our society we've convinced ourselves that we've got to do things on our own. "Pull yourself up by your own bootstraps." But here's a dirty little secret: that doesn't always work. We need each other.
The man in today's Scripture learned that. He needed Christ to heal him. But he also needed people to bring him to Jesus.
We all need that. We need people around us who will bring us to Jesus--and we need to be that person for others.
We're not created to be excluded from others. God created us for fellowship. We need to be there for each other.
We need to "encourage each other and build each other up" (1 Thessalonians 5:11, NLT). Everyone needs some support and encouragement at times.
We can also help our friends to grow. The Bible says, "As iron sharpens iron, so a friend sharpens a friend" (Proverbs 27:17, NLT). Yes, at times that process can be painful, but in the end, it is so rewarding as you become more the person God designed you to be.
We must be there to keep each other accountable--to make sure that the life we're living matches the life that we claim in Christ. When a friend is heading off in the wrong direction, we need to be there to point it out and help him or her return to the right path.
We also need to pray for each other (James 5:16). Don't ever underestimate the importance of praying for one another.
"Two people are better off than one, for they can help each other succeed. If one person falls, the other can reach out and help. But someone who falls alone is in real trouble"(Ecclesiastes 4:9-10, NLT).
Be there for your friends and allow them to be there for you. Sometimes we need someone to bring us to Jesus. -NotReligion Insights

This is a super good issue alright. It provides the guidelines for us to reach out to our friends and how to help each other. But however good it is, we still have to learn to apply it in our lives to make full and good use of it. (: And.. I really want to learn to bring my friends to Jesus. And not be discouraged. Like what Bryan said, you have sown the seeds, God will do the rest. (:

2007 resolution (:

Yesterday.. had a horrible nightmare. And in the dream, I knew I was in a dream. Haha. I was like saying this in the dream "I know this is a dream so get me out of here." And automatically I prayed to God in the dream to get me out of the nightmare. So cool right. Haha. And I was finally back into my room, real life. Ran to parents' room. And now I realised that it was something that allowed my faith to grow.
But.. today I quarreled w my mum. She said something hurtful and I ran to my room and cried like some.. monster. Haha. Then I wondered if what she said was right.. Maybe I did really felt that way. I mean, I was young at that time. Of course I would feel insecure and stuff right. Aiyah, I know you guys dont know what Im talking about. Anw, we're ok alr. But my relationship w God was badly affected. I still feel like He's angry. I know that personally, I will only be reassured if I really know Im in the wrong. And yes, I do now. Pride can really do destructive things.
So.. I didnt attend the wedding but I went for service. You know, presence of God. (: It was really wonderful. To know that He understands, He knows every bit of how I feel and all. Senior Pastor was the speaker. Talked about how youths can be wise and that wisdom is more impt than intelligence. Man, I want more and more of wisdom. I will pray for that everyday from now on. (: Haha. And pastor talked about procrastination. Herherx. Guilty of it. Im always postponing my studies for sleep. Haha. Cell discussion was nice. We talked about our 2007 resolution and the significant event of 2006. I realised that resolution isnt boring at all! (: I shall write them here, so that I will learn to look back at this post and do my checklist.
(1) Stop comparing
(2) Lesser sleep
(3) Anti-procrastinate
(4) At least 5 QTs, dont let studies affect that
(5) Don't talk back at parents
(6) Spend more time w parents
Add-ons
(7) Respect grandma (Even though I think she's made me lose the respect. So.. I'd find it back.)
(8) 1/4 of the Bible in one year. Haha. (Starting from new testement)
(9) Salvation of family.. I seriously dont have much faith in that.. Must pray.
(10) Let God work in me
(11) Assurance that 2007 will be great
So you see.. These two days are my only days left to sleep as much as I can. (:
And well, for the significant event.. Got quite a few I think.
(1) Spreading gospel (:
(2) Back to church =D I honestly never imagined myself back in church for real.
(3) QT improved (:
(4) Learnt impt verses that assured me
(5) The yearning to be closer to God. (:
(6) Overcoming a fear of killing spider using tissue paper. (And this just happened) Haha. Usually I use books cause they are thick and has large surface area. No contact to my hands and the spider sure die. Ok, maybe I should just leave them alone next time. Seems bad to kill something that never bother me.
Anyway, bought BBQ stuff for mum and I. We know how to enjoy life. But ate alot until my stomach seems to be filled w chilli only.
Watchnight service then sleepover at Joyce's hse. Super excited. (: This time must not lose my phone! (:

back to life

Then along comes Jesus. Only He has the power to set us free, to give us a new life, to forgive our sins (Matthew 9:4-6). He can bring peace to our lives (Matthew 8:23-27). And He does it freely, willingly, with great love and compassion.
Just as Jesus looked at these two miserable men and saw their need, He looks at you and sees your needs. He speaks the word and with power sets you free. It might be an unsettling experience--we're used to our sin, you know--and others may not understand (Matthew 8:34). But imagine the freedom! To be truly spiritually alive and no longer living among the dead. -NotReligion Insights.

How else can I react but =D . What have I done to deserve Him? Im really glad to have known You.
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Yesterday
Woke up early to type the summary for our Maths Project. And blogged. Then went to school for Maths meeting. Decided that I've sidetracked for my summary so I used what I wrote for some parts of the report and redid my summary. I wonder what I wrote, seriously. Haha. It feels like Im either typing subconsciously while being knocked off by the cough syrup, or my memory's failing. Went home and slept until no time to do homework. Went to cher's house for dinner w Hz, Sam and Jas. Played daidi and watched tv. Did my homework, and I finished 6 MCQs only. )= Gonna chiong soon. Ohyah, happy days to 4E2 next year. Heard that Mr Malvin Lim and Mr Marvin Chan are going to be our form and co-form. Like.. yay. )= At least Mr Chan isn't in charge of discipline this time, I heard. But still, they're going to make sure we are the toots of the school. Yay, so excited. I can like throw my specs away too, before Mr Chan throws mine. Haha. Ok, just realised that the phone is actually repaired. My dad brought it home and I thought that it didnt work so I was like.. rah. And it turned out to be my memory card's fault. Formatted it and it's ok now. Hope it wont die off or what. Going for watchnight too. (:

Tomorrow's programme. Do homework for 1000 years and then attend wedding and service in church. (: Feels like everytime during worship, Im simply handing my broken heart and mind, my emotions and all to You. It's such a bliss to be able to lift them all, far away from me. (:

Jesus is there--but do you have the faith to trust first and let Him take care of the storm? Is your faith enough to overcome your fear, your anxiety, your worry?

No, probably still lacking alot. I've gotta learn to allow Him to work in my life. (:
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Anyway, yesterday went to watch Night At The Museum with Hz, Jas, Cher, JY and Sam. It's super nice! Highly recommended. Herherx. (: We met at CP then went to Cineleisure. Super bored and wandered around. Saw this booth where this guy sells custom-made bags, whereby you can give him whatever pic then he help you to make. It's a nice idea but the result isnt really that nice cause the bag's picture is like glossy type? Then there was this booth that sells cosplay costumes too. Very nice and some can be even wore outside as normal clothing. Anw, Hz went to Maxonline so the rest of us went to Cheers for instant noodles and nachos & cheese. The cheese was super nice and after me and Cher finished our noodles, we kept passing the soup around to drink. Supposed to be late for the show but after we buy our popcorn at around 1750 or so (the show's at 1745), we got in on time. Haha. (: The show, as you may have guessed, is about this guy working as nightguard in the museum and just on the first night of work, the things came to life. He started off by finding the dinosaur (he called it rexy) missing and he went to find it. Haha. Found it drinking at the cooler. It's super cute and started charging at the guy. Turned out that it wanted to play fetch with its bone. Haha. Then got this rock kinda thing with -.- eyes and big mouth. It went like "Hey dumbdumb, give me some gumgum to eat." =D And there's this super cute monkey called Dexter and it keeps stealing the guy's keys. And some cavemen kept making fire. Haha. Got this group of Mongolians or smth kept shouting around and some minature humans kept bombing and stuff. Haha. And got one part when the whole museum went chaotic and the guy wanted everyone's attention but no one cared about him. Then the rock thing shouted " Shut UPPPPP!" then "My dumbdumb wants to speak." It's really super nice. (: So after movie, Sam and I went to eat and the rest went home.

*You have turned my mourning into dancing.

Whoever you are, wherever you are, for whatever reasons, come to Jesus today. Get to know Him in the Bible and judge for yourself if He really is as accepting and loving as people say He is. Don't worry right now about making yourself "pure" or "holy." Jesus will meet you where you are and take you to where you need to be. Because, after all, this isn't a religion we're talking about. -NotReligion Insights.

I used to have the thought about asking people to change before they come to the Lord. But now, I realised that I was imprefect when I first came before Him. Yeah.. And I wanted authority, but I learnt that all of us have equal authority and it's not supposed to be used to compare, but to help.
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Anyway, it's been a while since I blogged. Let me start off with...

Sat
Went to church at 2 to help out for the food fiesta in church. We cut the sausages, tried out the deep fryer and went to pick the monsters (too lazy to write down the names)up at heartland. Hz was real late.. Haha. I thought he decided not to come. But Im really glad they came lar.. (: Xx got lost and found her way. She waited for us until 1000 years then we finally reached church. Went to distribute the presents I shared with Joyce then helped out again. Service was great, especially the skit. It was so touching that I cried. Haha. And the song the Elizabeth sang was super nice. After service, went to the church's kitchen area to wash the oven trays and stuff. Im so proud of myself lar. Got one of the tray that we ranked 2nd most difficult to wash. Then I used the wire-like sponge and wash until the whole thing shines. But still got some chao da parts. Haha. Then Kaiwei wanted to wash the most difficult to wash one but he made a hole out of it. And when I tried to wash it, I made the hole become larger lar. Haha. Then went to eat with the monsters and went to Cher's house then home.
*339 youths went for "Love Letter", according to Andrew's blog. How great is that. =D

Sun and Mon
Church service and worship was super great. We sang "We Are The Reason". And alot of people accepted Christ I think. (: They acted the skit again, but I never felt bored of it. Joyce and I even recorded Elizabeth's singing. =D After that, went to lunch with Joyce and bought bag. Went home then met Cher, JY, Jas, Hz, Eugene and Gilbert at CP. Went to concourse and played pool. Sam joined us halfway and went to PS, then to Orchard. Countdowned and got this family scammed Hz. Haha. They were in the car and at first the son was playing those snow spray. Then after we counted down, they said we haven wish each other Merry Christmas. They extended their hands out and Hz went then they started spraying the snow at him. Herherx. Went to some place to sit and ate SubWay. Boarded a bus which was ultra cool cause' I never see that kinda bus before. With cushioned seats and this small table with those long chairs. So cool desneh. And we dropped off at MacRitchie and found out there was no more bus. So took cab to Hz's house and stayed overnight. Found out that I sleeptalked again! Haha. Sam and Gilbert left early and I slept till 12 something. Shall not going into further details but anyway, Hz's mum made a super nice breakfast. =D And I really wished I spent my Christmas in a more meaningful way. )= Anw, not going for Watchnight either.

*My next Christmas, Im going to really try to spend it well.

*Sigh of joy. (you know the way you go 'ha' instead of 'hai') (: Haha. Yesterday was a super long day for me. Went to docs early in the morning and he's quite weird lar, the way he asks questions. But he said my blood pressure, breathing system, pulse are all good! (: He prescribed four medicines lor.. )= And the cough syrup is so concentrated. But it's good. Haha. My throat has significant improvement already. And had a really nice talk w Andrew on the phone. I finally know who he liked! =D Went to cp to meet jas they all for dud's church event. I was late lar, but Hz was even later. Herherx. The hospitality was nice and skit was great lar, even though got some people making some rude noise etc. Haha. I especially like the testimonies of the people on the stage. (: Wah, when Dud was saying his, I was already crying like some water tap that's on. It's not the problem that matters, but that it was obvious that God was at work in his life and there was so much change in him. On the way back in the train, I was thinking.. what testimony do I have? Did I really let God do anything in my life? I really should think about it. I mean, I've been telling people that God will cast away burdens of the brokenhearted, but have I allowed Him to work in my life? Or have I been keeping them for self-pity pleasures to take out and look at once in a while. Which is so wrong lar. Im going to work on this attitude. Ok, back to on the mrt. Some left and the rest of us went to Hz's house. Was staying overnight but decided not to cause' I think I should really take care of my health and go home. Or I might not be able to make it for Sat. Yeah, Im so guai right. (: So Lewis and Sam walked w/ me to the bus stop, which was pretty far. Talked about quite a number of stuff. Haha. The three evonnes back in town. (:

delights and joys

Christmas is coming! =D I hope I do get better before it comes. Have been coughing a lot, and my throat hurts. )= And I haven see the doc yet. Haha. Cause' I was busy shopping for christmas gifts the whole of yesterday. (: Joyce and I went to Ikea to find imspiration for christmas gifts and we bought quite a number of stuffs. Presents for cell leaders and some leaders in youth ablaze, ablazers and our own friends. (: Then we went to Hougang Mall to buy DIY stuffs and started DIY-ing the stuffs at KFC. (: Haha. Alot of people keep looking at the two of us. Esp when Joyce went off to buy scissors for a while, I sat there and felt like drilling a hole to hide inside. Haha. Quite a good day despite the fact that I was basically sick and tired until can sleep on their beds and sofas. Haha. Photos of the gifts up after the people get their gifts. (:


Juv, the plastic hero! Stay strong (:


Me and Joyce (:


Goofing w shoes in Ikea.
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Juv dudey, hang on. You can do it. (:

confession

Aiyah, I was feeling very horrible just now. Then i kept retyping my previous post. Haha. But now I straightened out my thoughts. Just felt that I learnt alot just by what happened to people and I hope it won't make me have a phobia or what in the future. Haha. Anyway, I realised that I'll be truthful here. I felt neglected these few days but after that I felt that.. I should really grow up lar. I get envious because my friend is getting so much concern. I must have been crazy alright. Feel so much like a.. kidface. Haha. But really, she needed all the concern. And my part should be one of the concern-ers and not a sulker or what. Haha. Looma, you gonna learn to grow up. (:
Anyway, to Juv: You gonna stay strong and Im sorry for feeling jealous cause' you're getting so much concern. Haha. I feel so gay. Anyway, call any of us anytime if you feel like. But you gonna use the magaphone to call us up if it's at 3am. Haha. (: And remember to stay strong! Woots! Monsters rule. (:
That was a genuine confession. Haha. But sometimes well.. I think it's hard to tell people my troubles. But I know it's easier to tell God my problems. He's always there for me and I dont have to worry if my problem sounds too trivial for Him to laugh at because nothing is trivial for Him. (: And I personally feel that He understands me more than myself. Thank You Lord. (:

I just want to tell myself something: GROW UP.
I feel better. (:

picture marathon (:

1E1 chalet






Les-ing (:







Monsters! =D



Our kingkong block.


Just Kidding Lar. Herherx. Juv thought of it.



Lion dancers =D



They made me pose to be like Shi Xin Hui in her MV. )::::::: Haha.



Hz the ape =D


Juv took herself in the toilet! =D



Jassy's hair became like this due to Truth or Dare. =D


Group photo. (: Anti-clockwise: jas, cherine, jan, cher, juv, theresa and suan.


Jassy looking retarded (:


Me and Jan. Im cuter rightttt. =D Jk.


Komodo Ad.


Juveeenal (:

Carols.


Me and Joyce in our elves hat (:


Me and Kaiwei! =D


Church pillar lights


Long strip of tics (:

carols and carols

RAH! Supposed to go for Maths meeting today but I was sick so... didn't go. I realised that Im s super lazy lar. I haven start my holiday homework and I have not done my report for one week. Sam said yesterday during dinner "Why you like have so many reports huh?" Then I said "Maybe cause' I keep never do so actually all I said is actually one report." RAH! I feel so... irresponsible. )::::::::: "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men." Col 3:23 Anw, Janice and Joyce spurred me to do my homework. Hope I can keep that motivation. (:
Anyway, Im have bad sore throat, cough, fever soon, and flu. )= Please pray that I can attend the two chirstmas events. (: Actually I think even if Im sick, I'd still drag myself there. Haha.
Saturday
Attended youth ablaze and the worship was great. (: Pastor talked about the topic "Is the Bible really the Word of God?" He started by saying we have to believe by faith that it is the Word of God. And he showed us some facts about the Bible, things that are predicted and happened. He ended off saying if we believe by these facts only, our belief will be shaken and that we should believe by faith for greater conviction. So true! Human of little faith only wants to believe things that they see and not believe by faith. After service, my cell went to the room to write our love letter to Jesus for the christmas event. Gonna be some contest and girls will get one movie tic while guys will get extra movie tic if they win. Rah! Haha. But it's ok. Cause usually guys are less emotional so their chances of winning will be lesser. Haha! We had our carolling rehearsal and invaded a pre-christmas party that belongs to Joe's adult cell. Haha. Ate, took pictures, prayed. (: Went to one of the parties to sing and after that went to Blk 603 to sing. Haha. A pre-believer joined us. (: We ate and played some games then I kenna the forfeit. Haha! To daryl (from church) : Thanks alot. (: And he asked if I was angry leh. Haha. So the forfeit was as usual. Have to get a rubber band over your head to nose level and do anything w/o hand-aid to get it to your neck. Haha. After the forfeit they asked me "How's the taste of rubber?" I even betrayed myself by passing Joe his cam to video me. Haha. It's all for the fun. (: Then we decided to go for midnight movies. (: Joe sent the guys to a bus stop while the girls to church and to J8. In the car, we were singing christmas carols and he let go of his driving wheel once in a while. Risk our lives man. Haha. Then when we reached the carpark, Joe started to run so we ran too and I did my scissors leg. HAHA! Haven done it for 1375825 years. (: Watched 'Dejavu' and it was quite nice. About this crime and how this guy tried to solve it. He went back to 4 days ago to stop the act. In the end, the girl didnt die and he died but his '4-days-ago' didnt die. Haha. Kaiwei shared his jacket with me at first then I gave him back and he started to fall asleep cause' too comfortable. Haha! Then Joe sent Daryl and Clari home while joyce's dad sent the rest of us home.
To her dad: Thanks for sacrificing your sleep. (:
To 3E2: Sorry for not being able to attend the gathering.
To Mdm Sarifah: Sorry for not being able to bid you farewell and you've really been a great teacher this year. Will miss you. Haha. (:
Sunday
Attended adult's service. Andrew called me and sounded so tired. Haha. Still asked me if I was awake. I think he should ask himself instead. Service talked about people in our lives. And one part when he said there will be people who we can click with then I started thinking about Juvenal. Like how we share the same opinion most of the time and how we go crazy together. We can play and talk alright. (: To juv: I know Im very sweet. Herherx. After service, the cell started fixing the puzzle Wanhui made to improve our QT performance. We have to do QT everyday to be able to finish the puzzle by this year. Then met Janice at the foyer to go out! (: We hadnt went out since sec1, I think. So me, Janice and Joyce went to PS and ate at MOS burger. Walked around and thought of christmas ideas. Janice bought Creative ZEN Microphoto! Rah. Haha. I wanna buy the ZEN V Plus! It's chao ji nice can. I think Dud has it. Then after that, they went home and I went to meet Sam for dinner. He didnt eat in the end cause he wait until no appetite. Haha. Wont go into details already.

Cell in charge of Nachos & Cheese/ Sausage & Cheese booth for Christmas event! (::::: We'd eat up the food instead of selling. Haha.
And I think my fav quote now is "It's all for the fun." Like when people tease me or I malu myself, it's all to cheer all of us up and create happy memories. (:
Photos up in ten thousand years.

1E1 chalet (:

I feel like.. there's alot of things to do that I dont feel like doing. Alot of things to attend to but I feel like ignoring. And I just wanna play everyday lar. I dont even know how to survive for next year if this attitude continues. )= At first I thought having a group talk with them would allow me to spill all the stuffs that I really wanna say.. but actually it didn't work out for me. There were so many things that if I said, they wont understand. And a few things that some of them dont know. But I told myself, anytime I cant find someone to really talk to, I should tell God. He knows but if I tell Him, I'd definitely feel better. And I did.
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Anw, Im back from chalet and it was really good, better than last year's but the amt of people was getting a little lesser. Hope that everyone will go for next year's. (:
First day
Went to meet Juv and Jas at Hougang Mall and we ate at Yakun. (: Jassy's treat. Then went to Harvey Norman to buy the electric kettle. Wait there until 1000 years but still haven open so we went to CP to buy. Herherx. Went straight to Hz's house to hitch a ride from Cher's mum and set off. Reached early and went to macs and wait. Super noisy there but 1e1 people started streaming in and it really felt like the old days. (I secretly hope that next year can hold a camp in school and we'd get to sit in our old seats. Gay right. But it's been in my mind for 3 years.) Hz was talking about having a chalet when we're 40 and I said 'what about 90?' But that time the people will be really few. Haha. Er, Janice gave me a red christmas card. So hot. Haha! Thanks mama. (: Waited for Mr Ng who forgot about the time to meet us and went to our chalet. (: Super nice but the balcony's quite dirty. I went there to sit quite a few times. Very peaceful. (: So the girls settled our dinner at the foodcourt nearby and the guys 'ate already'. They ended up eating very late I think. Spent most of our time watching tv. Haha. Then me and Juv kept imitating Shi Xin Hui in her MTV ad. Super gay. Me, Juv and Janice had a lion dance and invaded the guys' room to disturb them. Haha. And I 'gave birth' to a pillow. Juv gave Sean a name: Teddybear. Haha! (: Then at night, Hz was playing his Fatalframe. Quite scary but I didnt scream much in the end. Herherx. Played Truth or Dare with blocks and some other hand games. Herherx. Slept at around 3 and woke up at 9 for dunno what reason. By that time, some had left for tournament and stuff. There was alot of going in and out for this chalet.
Second day
Started our day watching DOHA and played Cluedo. I won! (: Then some of us went for lunch at White Sands and me and Juv bought nice shirts. (: Herherx. Then this guy went to ask Theresa for number! He cqan be classified in between nerd and beng. Juv questioned for his school and CCA. Haha. And his CCA is library. Haha! It was raining so I prayed that it'd stop and it did! (: We bought some bbq stuff and when I went passed the admission thing with two bags of ice, the security touched it and say something like 'Dear, you carrying ice ar. It's cold. Go quickly.' Haha! Then Juv say he say that Im cold and she's hot. Herherx. To people who cant detect for jokes: She's obviously joking. Like eww. Then we went with Jas to buy porridge and I went to buy panadol. Everyone like going to be sick. Kahwai lose voice somemore. BBQ time, I prayed for rain to stop again and it did again! (: There was this really huge snail stuck onto our pit's bench and it's.. super disgusting. Haha. Ok, wont go into details about the BBQ but Hz's chicken wing is really nice. And cher taught me how to BBQ bacon, which looks more like ba gua. Haha. I know I seriously cant cook. )= Then at night, we were watching 'Triumph in the Skies/ Chong Shang Yun Xiao' and I know I was like half-sleeping and half-watching. But it's really super sad lar. Im angry with the Yishan. But yesterday's episode, she was telling the guy her thoughts and I thought that was what I felt. Something like the more she thinks, the more confused she is. And there's alot of doubts and confusion. )= Ok, sidetracked. Played Turth or Dare and it was seriously funny. I thought of dares such as
(1) Juv going to the other room and sit beside T-shirt bra (Yuanxiang) who is sleeping and tap him. Haha! Super funny.
(2) Eileen doing shampo ad.
(3) Cherlyn acting host for Star Awards.
Ok, super gay. Think Cher thought of Kenneth hugging Theresa for 15 sec. And she dared me to keep looking at Sean until he say 'go away lar'. So I was looking at him and I tell him 'quick! tell me to go away.' Herherx. I got talk to Teo Kia (kenneth), my beloved (eww!) partner in 1E1. For those who dont know, we spent our sec1 life sitting together and talking less than 10 sentences in the one year. Like wow! Anw, went to have heart-to-heart talk with Juv, Hz, Cher and JY. Juv did most of the talking. To Juv: Hey babe. You gonna stay strong and smile like crazy! (: Slept at 5 and woke up at 8. Haha. I kept going around to sleep. From one room to outside's corridor to the same room to another room's floor then up on the bed. Haha. There's not much to talk about the third day so ciao! (:

Looking forward to.........
(1) Dud's Christmas concert
(2) My Christmas event, going broke from all the tics money.
(3) Ton-ning. (:

To jassy: Get well soon! (:
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This is super random. My auntie just came to give us stuff for her grandchild's 1 month and you know what she said to me?!?!?! She was like 'Aye, ni hen xiang ni de ma ma liao. Yi qian bu xiang. Xian zai hen mei, yi qian bu mei. Sorry ar.' (You look like your mum, last time dont look like her. Now pretty, last time not pretty) I was like... HAHAHAH! So dsfhsufhzj can. But it's great that she says I look like my mum. I mean, I always wondered why I dont look like my mum. To Juv: It's ok if you wanna puke. Haha! (:

"In all that life throws your way, try to make a habit of responding to others with love and grace. It's a learned trait, but you're acting just like God by doing it. There are eternal benefits to living beyond your own comfort and extending love in the most difficult of times."- NotReligion Insights

I've been trying to do that. And sometimes I get negative comments for trying to console others or what. Yes, my advices and consolation may suck, but you know I did it with one objective right. Which is to cheer others up. So I felt yesterday that.. well, no one appreciates it, might as well as just shut up. But after seeing this, I realised that sometimes this happens to God too. Like we ask for an answer to our question, and He answers us, but we cant accept it so we just blame Him and all. )=

And actually yesterday, I quarreled with my mum over some stuffs. I think my mum and I are the same, very ego or what. We assume that we're right in everything. That's what makes our war scary. So after we argued over some stuff, I went to my room and.. cry! Haha. I felt really bad lar. I knew I was being arrogant and all.. )= So she came into my room to try to satisfy my question. Haha. It all started with a question alright. And she said that sometimes being smart isnt that good either, too many questions. I thought that yeah, Im a veryyyy inquisitive person. And I personally dont feel that Im smart ok. Some of you even have to correct my pronunciation, you know it. Anw, that's not the main point. Back to the question part. You can tell me something I dont understand and I can pester you for explanations like mad. Until I understand. So people, dont tell me anything next time. Herherx. Just kidding. All the chunk of stuff I've just said is only applied to knowledge stuff. Maybe I do know myself. I wrote so much. Anw, sorry mum.

Ok now, talk about my day. Went to compass and meet some of the 1E1 people + Eugene to buy bbq stuff for the chalet tomorrow. (: Bought until $71.40 (which is quite ok) and still got stuff left unbought. I still have to buy electric kettle early in the morning. Herherx. But nevermind lar, it's for all of us. So when you guys drink the water right, must remember how Looma hurried to buy the kettle last min and you'd feel so wen xin. Eww. I think you'd just puke the water out if I tell you this. Haha. Ok enough with erxin stuff. After buying, we (Hz, Jas, Cher, JY, Eug, Me) went to hz's house to put the stuff and we brought cluedo around S'pore. Haha.

Went to Paradise Centre at Dhoby Ghaut to meet Sock Yee, Bifang and Rongli. (and I seriously dont know of that place) We were actually going to play pool there but because of me.. Haha! I am seriously.. pigu lar. The story goes like this. Hz and Eug walk past the person in the store confidently but Jas, Cher, JY and I were stopped by the person cause we still walking slowly into the place and she ask "Are you guys 16?" then I answer without thinking "No, we're 15". SO PIGU RIGHT! Im sorry guys. But Jas and I gain something on our trip there. (ok gay) We tried to pronounce this cafe called "The Coffee Connoiseur" and we pronounced the Connoiseur in con-noy-sor. Super gay. It's becoming our quote. And we can think of alot of weird ways to use the word.

So we ended up going to concourse to meet Ck, Gh and Dong. And because we dont know how to go, we went to Lavender and walk around until we find the place. Ok, so pool was fun. It was my first time. Herherx. No life-r. So at first we randomly played. Then we spilt into teams. Eug and I, Hz and Jas, Cher and JY spectators. Haha. Then the guys help the girls alot lar. And Eug is super li hai can anot. Haha. And I finally found a very good but hand-aching way to position my fingers. (: Ok, so I learnt how to play pool. (: Then we went home in Daryl, Ck and Gh's easy route. (:

I realised how music can do to you. It can make you very emo. All the while I thought I was sad for nothing, it was actually the emo thing. So I've decided to try to delete all my songs like JM but deleting them is difficult! I can list all the songs I wanna keep and the list is long. But feeling emo is bad.. Dudley, just pass to me the CD you burnt quickly! Haha. Jk, take your time. (: I need time to delete the songs too.

Pictures. (:

Hz in the trolley when we buying the food. Poor trolley. )=

Eugene's phone! SUPER NICE CAN!

Ck's favourite Christmas tree. He never say but Im sure he loves it. Haha.

Concourse shopping mall with lots of lights. (:

Our two new competitors in the "Im Cute, You're Not" competition. I think of the competition name leh. So nice right. Haha. To Janice: We have strong rivals! )= You must buck up and try to act cute. I dont need to act, Im cute enough. Haha! Jk. I have to learn to act cute more. Haha!

This is what Juv and I agreed on: No you, no erxin actions. Herherx. (:

Since it's hols. Let's rekindle some memories of the class. Haha. Sounds so gay. Anw, stolen from Kailing's blog. (:
-who sits next to you? Huichin. (:
-who sits infront of you? Jesslyn (:
-who sits behind you? Elizabeth (:
-who's on your left? Juveeeenal (:
-who are your bestfriends in class? Not all best friends lar. Mostly are can play with and never tired of me one. Haha! Juveenal, Dud, Janice (my aii aii desneh), Lewis (buddy; brother!), Cherlynnnn, Huichin, Alyssa (xi-buo-hou), Charis (cha-li-si-wan-zi), Pris (gong nu), DONG!
-who's the....most shy? They're not shy, just quiet. (:
-cutest guy: Ck! (cute in kiddy way. haha.) And he says Janice is cuter than me! )= Haha!
-cutest girl: Me lar! Haha. Jk. Not Janice, not janice, definitely not Janice. (: Er, alyssa!!!!!
-tallest guy: Bryan
-most annoying: Everyone (:
-brightest of all: Joan (:
-funniest: Dudley, or rather disgusting-est.
-if you could live one of your friend's life,who would it be? I prefer to have a life belonging to me. Haha. Not that my life is that great.
-your favourite teacher? Mrs Sankar (1E1 o4')
-favourite subject? English
-who's your class chairperson? how'she/she? Xiaoxian. Dares to speak up. (:
-who's the class asst. chairperson? how's she/he? Dudley. Horrible papa gayer. Haha! Jk. At least he knows how to open the classrm door. Haha.
-who's the class treasurer? DONG! (:
-your class teacher is... MDM SARIFAH! (this is the most impt. herherx.)
-your class... 3E2 (:
-does someone in your class loves/likes you? Yeah, everyone loves me to bits and pieces. Afterall, Im lovable. Jk. (:
-do you have someone you love in your class? Yeahhhhh, my 2 babes and one who emigrate to 3e3.
-do you love your class? Yeah, but I still miss 1e1. Haha. Say "aww~"
-do you hate someone in your class? Nah. (: Im a niceee person. Not really.

Next year Im going to do this survey again. See if things change or what. Remind me! Haha.

*You see all the hurt behind their smiles and you tell yourself you'd never allow yourself to be like this, never.

Even the best fall down sometimes.

Stupid. I am in a super i-dont-know-why mood. )=
It seems stupid but even if people offer to answer my questions, I will tell em' I forgot what questions I have in mind. Perhaps I should write them down once I think of them.
I kept thinking that God is really displeased with me and when there's thunder, I'd think that He is angry with me. Quite gay right. And after a prayer, I was reminded that God is slow to anger. Ok, slow to anger. I must believe Him alright.
And I keep thinking that Im maybe tired from being optimistic. But actually I'd be even more tired if I am pessimistic.
Writing down my thoughts does answer my question. Herherx.
I feel 1% better already.

It's so difficult to change, you know. It's so difficult not to sin. Esp when there are temptations and deceits. )= Ok God, pull me through!

over the rainbow (:

Hello! (: Yesterday went for church and they talked about fear factor. Some points to address to people out there:
1) God knows that we'd fear insults so this verse was there to encourage us: "Hear me, you who know what is right, you people who have my law in your hearts: Do not fear the reproach of men or be terrified by their insults. (Isaiah 51:7)
2) Fearing human is entrapping ourselves.
3) Even if the world forsakes us or turns against us, we know that "Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me. (Psalm 27:10)
4) It's not the number of failures that lead us to success but the attitude that we have.
"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline." 2 Tim 1:7
So what do we do? (1) Seek God's presence (2) Cling on to God's promises (3) Wait for His deliverance.
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Pastor shared with us a true story of this elderly woman who always prayed for her husband's salvation (accepting Christ). So there was this evangelical event and she asked him if he wanted to go. To her surprise, he agreed to go. (He had always rejected her invitation to go for church stuffs) But he never turned up for the event because he met with a car accident. So she wondered like "Why? Why is this happening when he has not responded to the Gospel yet?" But she continued to cling onto God's promises, which I think is a very difficult thing to do. 5 years later, this man came to look for her husband, not knowing that he has passed away. And you know what he told the woman. He said that he had hitched a ride from the husband and the husband told him that he was going for evangelical event. Thus, this guy shared the Gospel with him and the husband accepted Christ before meeting with the accident.
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Such a touching story yeah? Yes, God does promise us things that can be seen in the Bible and we must have great faith to trust in Him. (: I'd try to.

So after church, went to eat with Sop and walked to Kovan to wait for Hz and Jas' arrival. Haha. Saw this really nice devotional book for students and I think I should buy it. (: Saw this really nice bag too. Ok, let's wait for money to roll in first. )= Sop left and I went to meet Hz and Jas. Walked arnd to find Cher's sis present. Easiest present to buy since Cher told us what to buy. Haha. Saw michelle (choir senior) too! We were super shocked to see each other. Haha. She's working at World of Sports. Er, went to KPT playground to meet Sam and his cousin and we went to Cher's house. On the way, saw RAINBOW!



Super nice can! I've never seen it for a longgg time. And because I've finally started on some serious Bible studying, I know that the rainbow is a covenant between God and Noah+ all life on Earth, whereby...

"I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth." (Note: destroy all life, not some life to those who want to question about tsunami.) (Gen 9:15-16)

Back to walking to Cher's house. We played game of life and I won! Surprisingly. Haha. Then Cher's parents returned with alot of food. =D Haha. While eating, me and sam"Ohmytian"-ed when the Chen Wei Lian got into Top 10 and we also bet who will win using drinks. Man, I drank alot. Cause' I kept losing. Haha. And I feel guilty for drinking.. )= But I was honest enough to tell Mum when I got home. Haha. Told her how I felt about sinning when I knew it's wrong to do so. Like taking God's mercy for granted. But nevertheless, talking is no use. I gonna learn to apply the theory into my life. Difficult, but I can do it with the Lord's strength. Yeah. (:

Haha. I just came across a comment that may have hurt me a lot in the past and kept me in bondage. But I dont know why my reaction was simply laugh it off. I should be glad that Im taking it positively and not thinking why am I so strange to have such a weird reaction. Haha. I guess that's how it works when only God matters to you. There's no longer any more need to bother about how others think about you. (::::::

random

Just two very random stuffs.
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From Joyce's blog.
Memphis: What's going on there? What are you doing?
Baby Mumble: [tap dancing] I'm happy!
Memphis: What's with your feet?
Baby Mumble: They're happy, too!

You gonna admit that is super cute k! To jas: We should have listened to you and watched Happy Feet. Haha.
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And did I mention that the guys wanted to sabo me to be Santa for the carolling? Like.. crazy lar. Haha. So Andrew decided that we should sms Joe "You are santa" together.

Im feeling super happy and free now because God has and will continue to set my bondages free. (: Let me start from this morning. (:

Met Jas and Cher to run but in the end we ended up slacking at cher's house. Herherx. I think we're super lazy lar. We were supposed to meet at 8am but I woke up at o730 w/o alarm (wow!) and wanted to postpone it. Haha. Jas worse, woke up only when I smsed her. So we said to meet at o830 and ended up 'running' at o9oo. Anw, I meant slack as in I went back to sleep while they watched cartoon. Haha. So gay. Then cher's mum treat us. Gave us 50bucks to eat desneh. So generous right. But we, as thrifty and sensible future leaders of S'pore, decided to eat at SIAM kitchen instead of cafe cartel. (: See how sensible we are, giving up steak for rice. (: Not so cham lar, but after the meal, I knew how much I wont want to eat thai food. (: Just not my taste. Herherx. So fussy right. To sam: I know, must think for the Africans. Which leads me to thinking of...

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I still can remember that time, think it was sec1.. There were only me, jas and sam. Then we went to eat at yoshi. And he keep telling me the ginger box inside got ghost and blahblah, keep throwing ginger into my rice. Then in the end I couldnt eat finish and he keep forcing me to eat, telling me to think for the Africans. I went crazy because of his nagging and threw all the contents on my tray (including the bowl) into the garbage thing. (Cause when you dine in macs and kfc, you just throw everything from the tray into the bin mah. Anw, I realised what I've done cause the tray felt light and we ended up fishing for the bowl from the garbage thing. Haha! ----------------------------------------------

That was a long recount. Anw, after that I rushed home to change and get to church for carolling rehearsal. There were chinese words and some of us were struggling to sing it. Haha. Then the guys keep trying to fake high pitch but failed miserably. They sing with efforts like they were running in some marathon or what. Haha. And gerald is cute! So is marcus! (Note: They are little toddlers. Not the guys from my cell. Haha!) Sophia came! (: And we didnt have cell discussion today.. Had holy evening/night. Had great ministering from Aunty Sharon, someone whom I know of today. I felt that after the whole encounter, my faith in God has deeply widened because He really knows how my heart feels. More that how much my mind could intepret why I feel this and that. I know that this joy within me will never be diminished if I dont allow it to. (:

*Life here and now is like the blink of an eye compared to "forever."

*I worship You, in spirit and in truth.

At SIAM kitchen.

Before.

Middle.

After. (:

Cher's creation (left) and my creation (right)

So you know who's more revolting now. Haha. (:

To jas: Be glad that Im too tired to upload your pics. Haha. (:

I feel much better after talking to Juv on the phone. (: Thanks babe.

HAPPY DONT-KNOW-HOW-MANY-MONTHS TO JAS AND GILBERT =D
According to Juv. Haha. I never was good with dates. Always struggling to remember dates and I took such a long time to remember the 3 babes' bdate. And actually Im still not that sure whether I remember correctly or not. Maybe I can only remember my birthday, and winston's! HAHA!

Ok, my brother went on drip yesterday. )= Dehydration and dunno what. It was because of his IPPT test, I think. Said that he passed all stations except for the running part. He failed by 14 seconds. Mama gayer lar. If it's me, I'd surely go to the big guy's table, slam the table using hammer (don't want use my hand, later pain) and demand for appeal. And somemore his friend called him when he was on drip that he had "graduated" from NS. Haha. And my brother calls me piglet now. He says all girls sleep alot. Yeah quite true. But I dunno why. Maybe all girls should set the alarm clock at the same time and SLEEP. (: But Im glad I have such a cute title. HAHAHA! To Janice: IM CUTE! Kidding. Haha.
Actually it's quite saddening sometimes. Like I can never forget the times I spent with my brother when we were young. All the piggybacks whenever we're at playgrounds, whenever we take pictures. (: I dont think we can do it now since Im so heavy. Haha! And during our growing up periods, we never really talk much and when we talk, that's when we are quarreling or pushing blame to each other. Haha. But now, it's great that we have random talks about our lives, the girl he likes (HAHA!) and about our relationships with God. (He's a free thinker, but he does believe in God.)

*Lord, I want to learn to do what pleases You with a willing heart. (:
*I hope I'd stop being so self-centred. )=

Sometimes I really dont understand myself, at all.

From now on.. Im going to greet Janice using: heyheyzz
And Janice is going to use: yoyozzz
The 'zzz' depends on our mood I guess.
Happy will be zz!
Sad will be zz..
Bored will be zzzz
Going to sleep will be zzzzzzzzzzzz
All caps will either be excited or I-wanna-beat-you-up
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That was so random. I think I seriously gonna become a monster soon. I sleep too much. In the (1) wake up, go school, sleep or (2) wake up, do things, sleep kinda way. So today my routine was (1) cause' I had to go for maths meeting. Shitfaces. Thimun over alr and now this. Actually, I really couldnt find my commitment into this project and felt like quitting last min. But after today's meeting, I felt kinda better cause' there's finally stuffs for me to do.

And Im so glad that people are going for Dud's and my church's christmas events. (:
Im going to learn to be patient as I await for the salvation of my family and friends. (:

Yesterday was quite fun. As in dinner with sam. We went to hougang mall to find "present paper" as he calls it. And he's serious about drawing a birthday card. Haha! =D So gay desneh. Still want to copyright it when he's copying other people's design. Haha. I have to admit I took 10000 years to find a nice wrapping paper/ present paper. Haha. Then went to eat and saw Juv's friend, Chengshen aka eggplant (brinjor or whatever). Haha. Then we went to KPT for dinner-after-dinner. Herherx. Went to the swing and we were swinging when this little girl wanted to grab me down so that she can swing. I think she can only grab my sandals lor. I was so worried that I'd send her flying cause' she was standing in front of me. She's very gay cause she went like "hen man leh!" (very slow leh). So when she started playing w/o the little boys, sam started singing "Lonely". Haha! =D Played the wheel thing then keep falling down. Herherx.

* I just feel that you're being hostile to me, somehow.

To my dearest friends, especially my 3 babes.

I know life's tough and all for us teens. And it gets worse when we experience stuffs like death of loved ones, relationship problems and parents' problems which is very common. Dont ever let grief take control of you and stay strong. In terms of parents' problems, let us all try not to take sides even if we know the whole story of the thing. Instead, always try to lessen both your parents' burden by one simple act: Take care of yourself and dont let them worry. You can always try to give them some stuffs or do simple chores to cheer em' up once in a while. (:

To my dearest brothers and sisters -in Christ,
We know the whole path we walk is very tough, for we have choosen to take the narrow path. Nevertheless, we know that God is with us and let's try not to stop walking on because of a huge boulder (obstacles) or decide that there's something more interesting to take a look at first (temptations). Let's continue walking in line with God and doing things that please Him. Let go of worldly things and store our treasures up in Heaven. Let's talk to God about our problems and let Him do the rest. There's never such things like "But this problem is so minor, God would be too busy for that." He cares about even the smallest thing you have at hand, He knows the number of hair shreds you have on your head. Lastly, the Bible is very important for God to speak to us through and that's also where we get our words of comfort, encouragement and assurance from. (:

It's not about talking, it's about life application and I'm struggling with it too. (:

I think these verses are really meaningful.

Col 3:12-14 Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you, And over these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

It may be long but actually to sum it all, love one another and never believe in an eye for an eye. With love comes compassion, kindness etc. I personally think that if everyone can do this, this world would definitely be a better place. It's much better than shooting slander, gossiping, using filthy language which includes vulgar words and using "oh my God"s. (In terms of the "oh my God", it cannot be used in vain.)

Special thanks to Joyce's blogpost which made me wanna move closer to God and working towards walking in line with Him. Ok, actually I just meant that her post made me want to do QT. Haha. (:

The moment was when I was reunited to You once again, when my life radiates peace and joy, when there is no need for me to fear cause' You are here, when I can hand all my problems to You, when I can just allow tears of gratitude gush down my cheeks, when You tell me there are more blessings in stored, when I know Im extremely unique cause' Im a child of a King. (:

IKEA! (:

Yesterday went to TM with Jas and Cher. Went to buy stuff for parents for Christmas. =D Think that life hasn't been going well for all of us so decided to cheer them up with probably my first-ever-Christmas present for them. Haha. And bought some other stuffs too. (: Then they wanted to go to the new IKEA but dont know how to go. Haha. So I, the most independent of them all (HAHA! Im just kidding alr), found free shuttle to IKEA. Aint I smart. Haha. It was a wild day lar. We keep playing around and taking pics until my batt going to flat. Haha. And here comes the pictures..

Say "AWW!" Super cute right!

Vote for the shuai-est guy! HAHA!

Now let's look at some of the sofas.

Poor sofa "uglified" by Cherlyn

This is definitely my fav! (:

And this is ck's fav cause' it has pink. Haha.

Looks more like a bed.

And now's the Choose Your Favourite Room voting. Haha.

Room 1

Note: The nearest chair is rocking chair.

Room 2

Room 3

Room 4

Room 5

Room 6

Room 7

I think Room 5 is cool but dark. If they add a Christmas tree (for Room 5) and fireplace and stockings (for Room 6) it'd be very christmas. Haha. I think I like Room2 most without the cabinet with lots of shelves that you can collect dust and cleaning up will be ma fan. Room 3 is nice but too many sofas. Room 4 is very nice too! Man, everything is nice. (:

Just a veryyy comforting verse that I read.

Psalm 112:7-8 He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is secure, he will have no fear; in the end he will look in triumph on his foes.

*Feigning ignorance, once again.

Cause I dont know what to do.